Asian American Therapy in California

Online Therapy in California

Asian American Identity

As a second-generation Asian American daughter of immigrants, I understand you may feel caught between cultural expectations, identities, or ways of understanding yourself. There is no right way to be Asian American. Your experience may be shaped by your family's country or countries of origin, immigration history, generation, language, class, gender, sexuality, disability, religion, and the communities you've moved through. You may feel deeply connected to your culture in some ways and distant from it in others. You may feel "too American" in one room and "not American enough" in another. You may have spent years trying to figure out which parts of yourself are yours and which parts were handed to you. Sometimes these experiences can leave us feeling like we have to choose between honoring our ancestral origins and being fully ourselves.

“Fear-based motivation is like fossil fuels -- they get the engine running, but they burn dirty."

Dr. Jenny T Wang

Psychologist, Writer

Children of Immigrants

Being the child of immigrants can mean carrying stories you didn’t live but still feel in your body.

You may have grown up understanding sacrifice before you understood the word for it.

You may have watched your parents work, struggle, adapt, and build something from very little. You may have learned that their sacrifices meant you needed to succeed.

You may have translated for them.

Navigated systems for them.

Taken care of younger siblings.

Learned how to be responsible early.

You may carry gratitude alongside anger. Love alongside resentment. Pride alongside grief.

There is room for all of it.

You don’t have to flatten your family story into “my parents did the best they could,” and you don’t have to turn them into villains in order to acknowledge that something hurt.

Both can be true.

Family Expectations, Culture & Belonging

Sometimes expectations are spoken. Sometimes they are simply understood.

Get good grades.

Choose a respectable career.

Make your family proud.

Take care of your parents.

Don’t embarrass the family.

Don’t talk about family problems outside the family.

Don’t make things harder than they already are.

You may have learned to organize your life around what other people needed from you.

And perhaps you became very good at it.

In our sessions you get space to ask:

What do I actually want?

Not what would make everyone happy.

Not what would make me look successful.

Not what would keep the peace.

What do I want?

Intergenerational Trauma & Family Patterns

Our experiences don’t happen in isolation. Ancestral histories, immigration (or forced migration) stories, racism, cultural expectations, and unresolved trauma can influence the ways that community members relate to one another across generations.

You carry the fears, beliefs, or patterns that seem bigger than your own experiences, but yet no one talks about it in your communit.

Together, we can explore these patterns without blaming yourself or your family. Understanding where these patterns come from can create space to decide what you want to carry forward—and what you want to leave behind.

Shame

Shame says: There is something wrong with me.

It can turn experiences into identities.

Instead of something happened to me, shame tells us:

I am broken.

Instead of someone hurt me, shame whispers:

I should have known better.

Instead of I learned to survive this way, shame says:

Why can’t I just be normal?

In sessions together, we slow that down, dissect it, and question:

Who taught me this?

Where did I learn that I was supposed to be this way?

What happened that made this belief necessary?

And perhaps most importantly:

Do I still want to carry it?

Model Minority Stereotype and Myth

The model minority myth tells a story about Asian Americans as a monolithic group, labeled as wealthy, successful, hardworking, educated, quiet, compliant, and capable of handling everything without needing help. This is a racist perspective masking real economic disparities, justifying inequities amongst immigrant groups, and a racist idea designed to create racial hierarchies and divide communities of color (defined by Dr. Ibram X. Kendi.)

It erases diversity. It ignores history. It invalidates the lived truth of the AAPI diaspora.

It silences our community and blames the victimized.

When instead you may want to scream “I need a break, I need help.”

You can be high-achieving and hurting.

You can be successful and exhausted.

You can be grateful and angry.

You can love your family and need distance.

You don’t have to keep proving that you can do it all.

Perfectionism

Perfectionism become a way of surviving.

If being excellent brought approval, safety, praise, or less criticism, you may have learned to keep reaching for the next accomplishment.

Maybe there was always another grade. Another promotion. Another expectation.

Another way you could have done it better.

Eventually, achievement can stop feeling like something you do and start feeling like evidence that you’re worthy. But you are not a productivity machine.

You are not your résumé. You are not your accomplishments.

You do not have to exhaust yourself to prove your worth.

Our sessions explore what becomes possible when your worth no longer depends on how well you perform.

People-Pleasing

Many of us learned to read everyone else’s needs before we learned to recognize our own.

You know when someone is upset. You know when the room feels tense. You know how to smooth things over.

You say yes. You apologize. You make yourself smaller.

You keep the peace.

People-pleasing became a survival strategy. It can develop in environments where conflict didn’t feel safe or where belonging felt conditional.

Not people-pleasing does not mean becoming someone who doesn’t care about others, but making sure YOU exist in the relationship, too.

Your needs count.

Your no’s counts.

Your exhaustion counts.

Your feelings matter.

A Liberation-Focused & Anti-Oppressive Approach

I believe that our struggles and suffering don’t exist separately from the environments and systems we live in.

I consider how race, culture, family, gender, sexuality, identity, and systems of oppression can shape our experiences of ourselves and our relationships, and I invite you into these considerations in our sessions.

In our sessions together, we question the messages that tell you to always be productive, successful, accommodating, or self-sacrificing. It means exploring what it might look like to rest, set boundaries, reconnect with yourself, and experience your humanity without having to earn it.

I won’t tell you what your relationship with your family or culture should look like. We explore. You get to decide what healing, authenticity, and belonging mean for you.

Racial Trauma & Experiences of Othering

Throughout the history of this country, Asian Americans and members of the diaspora have had the experience of navigating racism, stereotypes, microaggressions, fetishization, invisibility, or the pressure to fit into other people’s ideas about “who we are”.

Over lifetimes, our sense of safety, belonging, self-worth, and identities become compromised.

You don’t have to convince yourself that something “wasn’t that bad” simply because someone else experienced something worse.

Your experiences deserve space to be acknowledged and understood.

LGBTQ+ and Asian American Identities

Asian American identities intersect with gender identities and sexuality, and I have firsthand experience with this and would love to explore this with you in sessions.

You may have been navigating cultural or family expectations around gender, sexuality, relationships, or marriage while also trying to understand and honor your LGBTQ+ identity.

You deserve a therapy space where your cultural identity and your gender or sexual identity don’t have to compete for recognition.

As a second-generation queer LGBTQ+ affirming therapist, I welcome the complexity of exploring these intersections and what belonging can look like.

Sexual Abuse, Incest, and Carrying the Shame of Reporting

Talking about sexual abuse and incest can be incredibly complicated when the person who harmed you is part of your family or community. As Children of immigrants and part of being part of the AAPI diaspora, getting support in the after-care of surviving abuse is even more complex, and often leading survivors feeling unheard, silenced, or that their experiences did not matter.

You may have been taught that family problems stay in the family.

You may have worried about bringing shame to your parents.

You may not have been believed.

You did not know who to ask for help because you had limited resources.

You worry about what would happen to the person who harmed you—or to everyone else if you told.

You worry that telling the truth would hurt the people you love.

And when sexual abuse or incest happens within an Asian American family, shame, blame, silencing, and harm can become painfully tangled together.

You can love someone and still name what they did.

You can understand someone’s history and still say that what happened to you was not okay.

You can care about your family and still protect yourself.

Sexual abuse and incest survivor identifying as an Asian American experiences systemic pressure to perform outwardly, and carry the burden of abuse upon the self.

Microaggressions

“Where are you really from?”

“You speak English so well.”

“You’re so articulate. Where did you learn English?”

“You’re not like other Asians.”

Comments like these are framed as compliments, and you’re expected to smile.

And when you think back on them, you realize you’re carrying a heaviness you can’t quite put a finger on. A lifetime accumulation of these not-so-micro microaggressions is another way dominant cultures other the AAPI diaspora, and we begin to internalize identities of “perpetual foreigner”.

It leads us to feel that we don’t belong.

Our sessions together help give you words to describe these experiences, and notice what the demands of sustaining these micro-violence has asked of you.

Family Loyalty

You may have learned:

Family comes first.

Don’t disappoint your parents.

You owe them.

They sacrificed everything for you.

Those messages may hold truth.

And they may also leave very little room for your own life.

You can recognize your family’s sacrifices without owing them your entire future. You can love your parents without living exactly as they imagined. You can be grateful and still have boundaries. You can choose yourself without abandoning your family.

Our sessions together make room for how this can look like in your life.

Code-Switching & Assimilation Stress

You may feel pressured to become the version of yourself a room expects.

In a different voice, language, tone, expressions, and accent.

Different clothes, changed foods, ways of showing emotion, and whether to take up space.

You begin to make your identities invisible to “fit in”.

Code-switching can be a skill. It can help us navigate environments that weren’t designed with us in mind.

And we become exhausted by constantly changing and adapting.

In our sessions, we get to ask questions like what happens when you no longer have to monitor every part of yourself? when you can take up space without rehearsing first?

A Liberation-Focused Approach to Therapy

My therapy approach is informed by EMDR, Brainspotting, somatic awareness, mindfulness and self-compassion, along with Liberation Psychology, Critical Race Theory, identity and belonging work, and a broader liberation-focused perspective.

This part of my work is deeply influenced by Black liberation theology, Black feminism, womanism, and Black liberation thinkers who have challenged the idea that rest, worth, and freedom must be earned through productivity.

I want to be clear about that lineage: liberation-focused therapy is not rooted in the Asian American experience itself. I draw from these traditions while also recognizing that Asian American experiences and the diasporas have our own histories, complexities, and forms of survival.

For me, liberation-focused therapy asks us to look beyond:

“What’s wrong with me?”

and toward:

“What happened to me?”

“What did I learn about myself because of what happened?”

“What messages have I internalized?”

“Who benefits when I believe those messages?”

“Which beliefs actually belong to me?”

“What would it mean to live with more freedom?”

This doesn’t mean ignoring personal responsibility or pretending that systems and relationships explain everything.

It means refusing to locate every struggle entirely inside the individual.

Sometimes perfectionism was adaptive. Sometimes people-pleasing kept you connected. Sometimes staying quiet kept you safe. Sometimes being exceptional was how you learned to survive racism. Sometimes taking care of everyone else was how you earned belonging.

These strategies may have made sense.

You don’t have to shame yourself for developing them. And you don’t have to keep living inside them forever.

Our sessions can become a place to slow down. To take a break. To listen to the parts of yourself that have been crowded out by responsibility. To notice what your body has been carrying. To question the stories you inherited. To grieve what you didn’t receive. To reclaim what was lost.

And to imagine a life that isn’t organized entirely around surviving, achieving, pleasing, or proving.

You don’t have to earn your breath.

You don’t have to earn your belonging.

You don’t have to earn your worth.

You get to ask what it would mean to live more freely—and to build a life that you belong in.

How I can help you...

My approach integrates Brainspotting and Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR), along with Liberation Psychology, Critical Race Theory, identity and belonging work, and exploration of the intersections of culture, race, gender, and sexuality. I incorporate somatic awareness, mindfulness, and self-compassion to help you notice how stress and trauma can be held in the body, while creating space to process traumatic experiences and develop greater awareness of the patterns you learned or inherited.

You and I will explore how trauma, racism, oppression, family patterns, cultural experiences, and identities may shape the way you see yourself, relate to others, and experience your body and emotions.

Our sessions together help to put language to your experiences, understand intergenerational and learned patterns, challenge internalized oppressive beliefs, and reconnect with your identity and sense of belonging. I support you in developing greater self-compassion, resilience, agency, and liberating yourself to live more authentically—while reclaiming the parts of yourself, your culture, and your story that may have been silenced

Healing isn’t about becoming someone else. It’s about creating more space to be fully yourself.

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